:(

Now i don't have a mom. I guess I'll just be spending Christmas by myself.

wat is happening

why is happening are u trying to hurt me my friends how did u get in im srry to everyone plz dnt hate me evrything wasnt true

ROBERT IS AMAZING!!!

The night of coffee house

Coffee house was amazing. I got to see the people that i love and even more. I made kickass new friends too. It couldnt have been more amazing than it already was seeing kayla, janet jonathan mara and her boyfriend, Alfred, Sam, Michelle, Pheobe, Manny, Andrew,Marjorie. Chris , Wyatt Jake I got picked up by Manny while he swirled me around in the air. Tackeled Kayla athousand times because thats how much i love her, almost started a moashpitt(oops spelled it wrong) with Rober the told my i was pretty and gave me a hug 5 times in counting, got boners from wyatt and hes badass guitar playing skills. I was about to jump up on the stage and sing " in the name of" which is on my ipod this very second. The rest of the performances were awesome i like the two girls but it kind os made me sad when she started crying on stage. I liked Oscar who waved at my camera. Man i didnt want that night to end I love all of you that went and we have to go again.

Oh and kiki went too

i couldn't be even more mad at myself i threw away a perfectly good guy for a perfectly bad one.
i feel horrible. :(

damn....

just shot me in my fucking face. I need to talk to somebody about this or i will explode!

new york and me...

Wierdest but funnest trip ever!
OK. My mom , me , my brother( Raymond), and sis ( Joya) went to new york to go to this family reunion, which wasn't even our family in the first place and we went to this really expensive hotel that was almost like $200 dollars a night( that's expensive for me the highest hotel i ever went to was like $50 dollars a night ) and then i met this guy named Mike. Very sweet guy and he works at the hotel . And he was talkng to me about how he likes this girl that works at the hotel too. ( but i don't even know how he likes her she got sunburn all over her face looks discusting ) so i told him he should go talk to her other than wishing that he could talk to her. He told me he couldn't so i went to go talk to her and it turned out she was a he that turned into a she. Yep she was a tranny. I didn't know how to tell him because if i was a guy and fell in love with a girl who was actually a guy i would kill myself. ( kidding but it would be real gross). So Mike asked me if she ( he) liked him and i told him go talk to her. He said tomorrow. When i woke up to go eat the free continental breakfast Mike was mad that m efor not telling him that he was in love with a tranny and he never talk to me again. THe funnest part of the trip was that there was hot guys everywher you turn. :)

new bands!

1. shmerdZ
2. warped corpses
3. industrial frost
4. joe-haze
5. shwarzes fragment
6. candence project
7. orgasma
8. pink industrial whores
9.the misery
10.gibbersoft
11.hellen keller
12. carmine eville
13. love craaft

GOD!

I hate you Kayla and your stupid happiness

EWWWWW!!!!!

nothin worst than cleaning a dirty school.....

I hate you even more!

NOw you have the nerve to come back when i finished cleaning and ask for your jacket even though i didn't know where it was and then take my bag and leave.
Screw you even more!

GOD I HATE YOU!!!! (kinda)

I hate kiki, Anjelica, Janet, and Jonathan.
They made like a crap load of a mess in
the library. I got in trouble and had to clean it up
even though i didn't even make half the mess
SCREW YOU!

Dear my love

dear my love,

I don't know how to say this. It's hard to say whats going on in my head because i don't really know myself, but the times i spent with you have been the best it's like i have known you for just a short time but it feels like forever. Your a douche bag and you lie alot and your mean to alot of people but not me and i seem to get over that and find that nice side of you. You keep messing with my emotion. I want to be around you but then i want you far away from me. Your the only guy i really like. It's wierd. but i want you to feel the same way.


love, janaye!

He could be the one.... kidding (kind of)

I wish it would all just stop. Just stop liking guys forever everytime i see him my body stops my heart melts and i feel like i cant breath. I hate when i feel that way because i know i like him but what if he doesnt like me... then i would feel horrible. This is the only guy that i have liked for a long time. When i talk to i feel so happy i laugh and i feel like nothing bad can happen in the world but when he has to go i feel like the wold is about to end ( a little dramatic i know) but its true i cant get him out of my mind!

Starting something new

I guess i just created a blog because everybody else was doing it and kiki told me that it just helps you let your feelings out and i have alot of feelings, so as long as everybody doesn't go around telling people ill be happy to share my feelings.